Week 4 – financial reality hits home

Week 4 – financial reality hits home

Terror very close to home this week. My whole family regularly goes out around London Bridge; my daughter works within minutes of Borough market. The location and nature of the attacks were so chilling and frightening. London is subdued and quiet. As well as feeling horror at the event and loss of life I am also anxious about what this will mean for the election. Fear usually plays well for the Tories.

I have focussed on revising for my anatomy and physiology exam- defaulting to the approach I took to my A levels 40 years ago. So I’ve brought a large stock of index cards and spent hours pacing the living room  rehearsing facts; or sitting past papers. This  will be the first written exam I’ve done since I was 21 and I’m VERY nervous.

Last week I felt really good about my massage skills – this week has been much less positive. I did two massages which, for different reasons, I did not feel went well. Feeling a bit low abut this.  But better about my progress to becoming  a doula. My profile is now live on the Doula UK site so in principle I may start hearing from potential clients at any time. We will see . . .

I have received my first pension statement. It’s reassuring to get this but all that money will be going into towards  domestic expenses. In recent years, since my children finished university, I have felt pretty well-off. It is a strange feeling that I currently have no cash going into my own bank account. I have savings  but these are diminishing. Welcome to the uncertain world of self-employment I suppose. For the first time I feel anxious about how it will be if I don’t start to earn some money. I have given myself the target of having my business up and running by 1 September – by which I mean I will have a website and will have started to do some paid work. Fingers crossed.